Thank You

This is a thank you to Living Proof ministries. I attended the Louisville event at Southeast Christian, and I firmly believe it was due to your prayers covering the event that brought me there. I only live 20 minutes away from Louisville and not only was a group from my church going, but my Bunco group was going as well. I turned down three opportunities last year to buy tickets, before they sold out. I had various reasons, money and child care being the ones I told everyone, but really I think it was more of an issue with my heart.
Next thing I knew it was a couple of weeks before the event and someone couldn't attend. You think I took the ticket? No, we had just had some financial issues come up and my husband was working a 12 hour shift on Friday night. So, another friend bought the ticket and that was that...
Or so I thought. The week of the event I received an email that she and her husband had concert tickets and she didn't realize they were the same night. She wouldn't be able to go. So now both God and you are screaming, "Take the Ticket!" But still, I wasn't sure, I'd have to figure out child care, there was still the money issues, and I just wasn't sure if I wanted to.
You see I've done some Beth Moore studies and I knew I wasn't ready to make some of the decisions I was going to have to make. God would be there, I wouldn't be able to run from him. He's been pulling at me to start using some gifts He's given me and I've been, shall we say, unmotivated to put forth the effort. So finally on Wednesday I asked my mom to watch the kids, and called my friend to say I'd buy the ticket from her.
I left a message and waited to hear back. And this is when the providence of God, finally screamed at me. She called me back and said she hadn't wanted money for it all along. She thought I knew that. She just wanted someone to be able to use it. She didn't know the struggle we were having with our finances. That we had just had a huge let down, that I might have to go back to work. The struggle I was having in my heart with fear and worry. But God did. And I had to decide that He was worth it. He was worth the financial sacrifice and hassle of finding a baby sitter. He was worth more than I had been willing to give. And I had to decide I wanted it, before I could see what He had in store for me.
So, Thank you, for your prayers leading up to the event and during. I was one who wouldn't have been there without them.
It didn't stop at just mere attendance, I've been thoroughly blessed and revived in every sense of the word. I was letting the choke set in as just a fact of life. The anxiety and worry was choking out every good and beautiful blessing that was right in front of me. I am now working on Treasuring his Wonder, Protecting my heart, and Stopping the choke of anxiety from stealing the work God can do through my life. I'm working on moving myself out of the way and allowing Him to use all that He can.